Fears... Everyone has a fear
As
a kid I was scared of little things, like the dark and going somewhere by myself. But, as I got older and my life starting
falling apart and my family started falling apart. I realized if I went by myself somewhere it would be ok, it wasn't the
end of the world. And being in the dark is just being in your room or outside with no lights or sun.
Now, the only
thing that i am scared of is loosing everyone I love. Behind every fear there is a story of why you are scared of the things
you are scared of. If you get bite by a dog growing up, then you might end up being scared of dogs. Or if you watch on television
about how snakes bite and sharks attack, then you might get scared of them.
Alot of times you can face your fears,
and then you can move on in your life. How do you face the fear of loosing everyone you love? You can't.
I mean if
you are scared of a dog you can go pet one, or if you cant be left alone in the dark you can easily work on it slowly. But,
you cant work on loosing everyone you care bout. I mean you cant face death everyday till you can handle it. And every time
you loose someone it gets harder and harder. Getting phone calls in the middle of the night saying we just lost your best
friend she died in an accident. Or getting a knock on the door and having a friend come in crying saying "mikes gone" and
then when someone in your family dies what do you do or what do you say to your other family members?
These past two
years I have lost six people I have cared about. It makes you think of how lucky you are to be alive and well you are.
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